A Clear Conscience

I've done a hell of a lot of soul searching today about the past couple of days. My head is coming back in line and after a peaceful day (well until my daughter arrived back from her boyfriends) and my thoughts are clearing.

I've finally realised that my ex isn't actually worth me fighting for and her new fella is welcome to her, my reasons for this are plain and simple.

If she can go into a new relationship and then end up snogging my face off and then in bed with me, what is to stop her doing the same to me. Also she has started a new relationship and hasn't told him the most important part of our night together... "She still LOVES me". So how can you go into a relationship and still love an ex, oh and something else I've noticed is, my ex will tell everyone else that she doesn't love me, but she can't tell me, the reason I know this is because a friend asked her and she told her that she doesn't love me, but when she asked if she said it to me, once more the subject was changed.

Strange that!!!

So in essence of the title and a clear conscience, I know that when or if I get into a new relationship, I can go to sleep at night with a clear conscience and that I will be able to wake up in the morning and look myself in the mirror and smile as I wont be hiding behind a secret that will eventually come out and there will be no more lies as I wont be doing the stupid things I've done in my last relationship.

So hears to me getting fully back to my old self and no more of the shit I've had for the past few months...