Leading A Life Of Confusion

Fuck knows how I get myself into these situations but I do.

It all kicked off a few weeks ago with my ex and things turned very nasty between us, the reason for that was because I was told by a mutual friend that my ex was seeing her new fella before we split, so I sent her some very nasty name calling texts, (not something I'm proud of) and next thing I know, the boys in blue are knocking on my front door.

Seeing as it got that nasty, I did something else I'm not very proud of and that was I text her ex husband who has her other two kids, all that was going on, in consequence my ex daughter is now refusing to see her or to even speak to her.

Any way, that was four weeks ago.

Last Saturday I had to speak to call her at her work to ask her for some money towards her phone bill, I only meant to stay on the phone and tell her about the phone and then hang up, but 35 minutes later we were still chatting. For someone who hated me for the past few weeks to suddenly speaking to me like we were still friends and nothing had happened in our past.

After I finished with the call, I swapped from the station next door back to my own when I remembered something and had to call her back. She carried on chatting and somehow we got on to the subject of her and her new fella. Basically she told me that she hadn't cheated on me and I said it doesn't really matter anymore, but the turning point was when she asked me, who should I believe, her or some drunken bloke in a pub, when I said that the bloke drinks in the pub that she works in, and what do you think? she flipped and ended up slamming down the phone.

So this left me confused and wondering why is she even bothered as I'm no longer with her.

On Wednesday, my ex was supposed to drop the money to my house but when 8pm arrived and she hadn't dropped it off, I rang a mutual friend and asked him to text her about the money, she replied to him saying she would drop the money off before work Thursday night.

7pm Thursday night duly came and went, so I had to text my friend again and in the end I had to pop up to her work and collect the money from her at work. Considering she was at work, she started chatting again like we were still chatting everyday of the week, I only wanted to collect the money and dash, but 10 minutes later and she is still trying to hold me back with conversation.

Then the icing on the cake was late last night, (no she didn't turn up and try to jump in my bed again) she started commenting on a friend facebook status and next thing, it's going back and forth for over an hour between us, and then it carried on this morning like we were still friends and nothing had happened.

So now you can see why I'm confused and wondering what the hell is going on, even a couple of friends I've spoken too haven't a clue.